We spend all our lives trying to do the right thing.

We drive ourselves into overthink mode just to avoid making bad decisions, whilst silmutaneously searching for a stability that we’ve been led to believe life will eventually give us.

This was me.

Searching for stability.

I felt like life was finally beginning to take some shape, some order. I was in a healthy relationship, my relationship with my mum was growing stronger and stronger, career wise I knew my worth even more and my friendships were standing the test of time.

So it hit me hard, when in amongst all the above, I probably received one of the worst situations to hit me – all unexpectedly and why? Because I was searching for a stability that probably never really exists.

You know when they say the, “… the grass isn’t always greener on the other side..” – Believe them.

Without going into too much detail as I feel it important to take time out to learn, heal and grow – i’m still in my healing stage. One thing I’ve learnt this year is “Stability” is a state of mind. It can never be practical as long as this life we live in continues to throw us curveballs when we least expect it. One thing I will take away from everything that has happened this year, is that it’s okay to start again. It’s okay to make a fresh start not at the cliche moments of our lives such as birthdays, new years…. we can start again whenever we feel the need to.

So here’s to New Beginnings.

I’m grateful for lessons because they make you stronger, less naive and  more resilient to the curveballs that life will inevitability continue to throw.

Mercedes xxx

Styled by Chakkana Pryce

Photography by Amarachi Nwosu 

Designer Akinbolaji